Ive been wanting to do this post, but ive been so tired these days that i kept procrastinating.
You know...i really have this love-hate feeling for my lil sister. She's like...so annoying sometimes and gets totally on my nerves so much so that i would just wanna smack her and roll her all over the floor while stamping my gigantic legs all over her. But sometimes, she's just....so adorable and .. cute.. and...sweet..
gosh did i really just say that?
So, on one freaking tired day, at like 2am or something, totally zonked out from work, walked back to my room, switch on the lights, only to find this staring at me.
I thought that it was a really sweet thing to do! Just so you know, although my sister and i share the same bedroom, sleep beside each other on the same bed every night, we dont really have much time to talk or even see each other when we're both awake.
Like seriously. I think the longest time we didnt see nor talk to each other was like almost 2 months? And thats because she works 7 days a week, and she's always out when im home and home when im out.
It is that BAD!
So....i couldnt even thank her in person for the very nice and expensive birthday gift, i had to write a return note to her, and stick it on the wardobe door!
And please, stop scrutinizing my ugly handwriting already.And me, being a dummy and complete idiot at gadgets, i really have no idea what to do with it. But duh, i managed to find out anyhow. All i wanna do now is to download games into it! Somebody, teach me?
Totally dig this thing! I used to tell my friends that i dont like the IPhone because its...touch screen and i dont really like touch screen. But now, i kinda regret because if i were to get the IPhone instead of the ITouch, i dont have to carry so many gadgets around whenever i leave the house! And i think its more worthed it? Cos im planning to get a new phone anyway!
Now, my bag's too small to fit in all the stuffs i have to bring everytime im out. And thats, a new reason/excuse to buy a new bag. YAY!!
Thank you lil Sis!!
I know this came pretty late, but..
I had an awesome 21st birthday dinner/party at Fort Canning - The Legends last Saturday!
I so wanna thank all the 60 people who turned up, thanks for all the presents that was..so hard to figure what to get, thanks for all the birthday wishes that came truely from the bottom of your hearts, and thanks for being a part of this memorable day.
Of cos..i really wanna thank daddy for putting in so much effort in this party (though sometimes it just gets on my nerve!!) Thanks for making so many trips down to the restaurant to make sure everything's good for the big day. And of cos, mummy too!
Not so much thanks to my sister who was supposed to be the photographer but kept taking blurred pictures because she refused to on the flash because the flash is too powerful that makes the picture less pretty but i rather have super bright but clear pictures than nicer and blurred ones. OH WELL..
And in random order..i wanna thank...
My relatives and cousins for all the ang baos, Agnis b bag and MIO bracelet.
Leanne & bf for the Agnis b bag charm
My colleagues for the Tiffany & Co charm bracelet, Estee Lauder perfume set, River Island gift vouchers and Goldheart necklace.
Adrian & gf for the Swaroski handphone charm
My loveliest girlfriends for the Goldheart necklace and Sizhu for the really sweet handmade birthday card as well as Clinique Mascara.
My weekends buddies - the BBCs for the Louis Vuitton keypouch and 2 bottles of red wine and Kenny for the BIG ang bao.
The BSCs + mahjong kakis for the Coach coin/card holder.
I LOVE IT ALL!!
And you guessed it right, i was working on my 21st birthday. The actual day itself!
My team peeps surprised me with sunflower! Loveeeeeeeee it.
I know i look damn bad in this picture, dont remind me!
And of cos, i wanna thank my bestie for the birthday dinner at My Secret Garden last night. It was a great day, just the 2 of us..
I have many more pictures, but i think that will be all for now.
I just read Xiaxue and i am so shocked from what i just read that i totally cannot believe it.
I knew the world was a bad place to live in..i never knew it was THAT bad until now.
I cannot understand, i totally cannot accept it.
This is crazy, its nuts! Its inhumane, how on earth can such thing ever happen? This is madness, i cannot take it..
You have to read to believe, cos it is true!!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Josef_Fritzl
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/news/worldnews.html?in_article_id=562377&in_page_id=1811
This is SO INSANE. AND HE IS NOT EVEN THE LEAST REMORSEFUL?
HE IS CRAZY!!
http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/topstories/2008/05/07/depraved-dungeon-dad-josef-fritzl-i-m-no-monster-89520-20408704/
If you remembered on the post i wrote in chinese few days back, i said i wanted to cry so badly just to let things off my chest but i couldnt drop a single tear? I read this and i am NOW CRYING SO BADLY.
What's wrong with that guy?! HE IS CRAZY.
And i am going crazy knowing that such things do happen in this earth im living in.
My GOD!!
I am so in love with my latest buy
the Roxbury Drive.
Not a very big fan of LV, but i really really love this colour. It is like..so love!!
And the next bag on my list shall be the Loewe Amazona medium size either in full leather brown or suede black.
What say you?
情绪非常低落, 真的好想大哭一场, 眼泪却无法落下来
想不到有什么会令我痛哭的事, 但却觉得好心酸, 好沉重
每晚都在做恶梦的我, 真的不想让你离开我的世界
就让我痛痛快快的哭吧, 哭了之后也许能快乐一些, 也许能忘记我曾经喜欢过你
真的很想放手, 却又不想放弃我们曾经永有的快了时光, 那些短暂的美丽回忆
我真的可以大大方方的离开吗 ?
"Get over it Amber, you need to do that in order to proceed."
Everyone's telling me the same thing, do you reckon i dont know this simple logic? I mean..words are cheap, its easier said than done.
How hard have i tried? Ive been trying all these while, trying all my life.
Its not that complicated really, its just .. different.
I cant seem to fall in love, so sweetly as how i did the last time. Falling in love with him, was so easy, so quick, so..sweet.
And i miss that feeling, i wanna feel it again. The kind of feeling which i have no control over, totally irrational but.. so sweet and so..easy.
But i just cant find anyone else who can make me feel this way. Not anyone else close to even feeling it this way. Sometimes i thought it was A, then i thought no..i should be B, but hey.. even C doesnt fit the bill.
I dont have anymore feelings for him, like come on, its been 4 freeaking years! But i wanna get back that kinda love i had for him, that kinda magical feel thats totally indescribable(on someone else obviously).
But that someone else, is just not within my reach, not in my world!
I do admit, that after the last break up 4 years back, i did have feelings for some people, but that kind of love just feels so different and therefore there was never a beginning because its not the kind of feel ive lost and am searching for.
Why.. why even after hurting me and having to leave me do you still made it so difficult for me to go on.
How.. how did you make me feel so in love with you that no one else can make me feel the same way again.
I feel so haunted, so haunted by the past love, a love that past but a feeling that i dont wanna forget, a feeling that i wanna have with the next love of my life.
* yours truly.
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